The Thing that I must do

I toss and turn to bed again

I never thought I would feel this pain.

I realized that there is nothing I gain

But I only have myself chained

With this feeling that makes me mad

Had all the things turn out bad

It’s true that you’re all that I ever had

And for that, I will always feel so glad

But lately everything been out of control

My heart suddenly had a hole

It’s killing me and slowly taking my soul

There’s no one else that I can call

To save me from this misery

It’s only me that can solve this mystery

We must now face the truth and accept the reality

All I want is a little space

To put everything back to place

I will do whatever it takes

I just want to be free for heaven’s sake

What we had has no direction

Hurting you is not my intention

But this is the thing that I must do

To stop us from feeling so blue

It’s not that I want to left you without a clue

I just can’t say that we are through

So please just understand

That I want you to let go of my hand... 

I will Let you go...

I sat there quietly as I took a glance on my phone.
Still no text?!
I'm waiting like forever.
Now, maybe it's the sign.
Something isn't right anymore
I guess it's over....

Just like that.
My world suddenly wanted to crash.
Feels like I'm losing all that are important to me.
But there is nothing else that I can do...

It's now, the time to cut the line.
And no matter how hard it is,
I must be strong
I know it is for the best.

I tossed and turn to my bed, making this decision isn't really easy for me.
Although I know crying won't do me any good.
I still cry all the tears but the pain won't go away.
How stupid I am but there is nothing that I can do.

The clocks ticks away
I'm still awake..thinking...
Then I prayed that God will give me the wisdom to know if this decision of mine is good...
or if not, please just help me and guide me as I face the consequence of my decision.

And now...
whatever happens, there will no be no turning backs...
I'm decided....