The Wish

I remember when I was young; I used to make a wish.
I always wish for someone to love me.
Someone who will accept me no matter how stupid or bad I am.
Someone who will never say goodbye and never leave me behind.
I never stop wishing until I grow up and started falling in love.
I used to love many people without getting anything in return.
I got hurt many times that I started to stop wishing.
I stop believing in love.
I denied the fact that I am a person that is capable of loving someone.
Then I close the door.

Until, someone came in my life.
Someone who unexpectedly grants my wish,
someone, who made me realize that there is something missing in my life.
But things did not go well between us.
Sadly, we couldn't be together.
We couldn't love each other,
Not the way we wanted to.
I accept that fact wholeheartedly and without regrets.
I thought I'll be fine.
But things got really crazy.
Again, I was hurt.
I was hurt so bad.
So bad that I used to cry every night
when I'm in front of my friends I try to fake a smile.
That Love drives me insane, it turn my world upside down.
But I couldn't let things go, I don't want to hurt that someone.
But One day I know, I have to...

And that day came,
I saw that someone cry and it breaks my heart.
I want to take all the words back but I couldn't.
All things had been said and done.
I know I couldn't stop it or reverse it back to yesterday.
I am decided.
These things must be done for the betterment of our lives.

Then I remember my wish.
Love must be so crazy.
He had done a way to make me believe in love again
But in a very crazy manner though.
He granted my wish to make me believe again.
When I realize that, I feel like regretting what I had wished for.
Because I know, my wish is something beyond impossible.
Or if it is meant to be true, Today wasn't the right time.
I also realize that Love would not give you what you want
Instead it will give you what you need.

When I was young I used to wish for someone to love me.
But I found no one, instead I found my friends.
It was like Love said: "You want a LOVER but a FRIEND is all that you need,"

I will Let you go...

I sat there quietly as I took a glance on my phone.
Still no text?!
I'm waiting like forever.
Now, maybe it's the sign.
Something isn't right anymore
I guess it's over....

Just like that.
My world suddenly wanted to crash.
Feels like I'm losing all that are important to me.
But there is nothing else that I can do...

It's now, the time to cut the line.
And no matter how hard it is,
I must be strong
I know it is for the best.

I tossed and turn to my bed, making this decision isn't really easy for me.
Although I know crying won't do me any good.
I still cry all the tears but the pain won't go away.
How stupid I am but there is nothing that I can do.

The clocks ticks away
I'm still awake..thinking...
Then I prayed that God will give me the wisdom to know if this decision of mine is good...
or if not, please just help me and guide me as I face the consequence of my decision.

And now...
whatever happens, there will no be no turning backs...
I'm decided....

For a friend

Endless friendship that is my Gift.
Memories of laughter, fun and even cheers
I'm so blessed because we're friends
Lucky that's what I am
In times of my troubles, you are there
Embracing me with your love and care.

At ngayon, ako sana'y may nais sabihin
Nananalangin na sana ay iyong dinggin
Na sana ay iyong pansinin, mga salitang aking sasambitin,
Emilie, Maraming Salamat at Maligayang Kaarawan! :)