Graduation… all my life I had been waiting for this day. For this is the day I know I will make my parents so proud. The moment where I actually see my parents shed their tears of joy as they wear those smiles on their faces as well.
All those things actually happened into my life. I did graduate from my bachelor’s degree of Mass Communication – Broadcast. Just last April, five day before my birthday.
I was one of the happiest persons on that day. I was even teary eyed as I texted my parents about how happy I am when I received my diploma and how thankful I am for I have a good and loving parents like them, I also told them how happy I am and that I dedicated my diploma to them. God! I was really very happy that day and no one can take that away.
But after celebrating my birthday with my so called friends and devour myself from the happiness when I marched and received my diploma; when the month of May came, the boredom started killing me. It slowly had taken me from the dilemma that I don’t know how I got myself into.
Now, who says that graduation is the end of a person’s misery in life? Yes, maybe in school but not in real world. Graduation is not where everything end and stop instead it opens a new chapter in your life, a start of a new beginning, a way that will lead you into the doors of different opportunities, of success and of the real world.
The dilemma that I am facing is slowly killing me. For I think that this dilemma is different from what my other classmates are experiencing.
It is the dilemma of not knowing what you really want into your life. That is true, at this point of time; I actually don’t know what I want, what or who I want to be. Will I pursue my dreams of being a successful writer or just let my weakness shudder all my dreams.
I later started feeling being enrolled in University of undecided where I face different exams and test.
I don’t know what to do…
I don’t know where to start…
Way back then I have many dreams, very determined to make them all come true. I have many plans, many goals, awards and achievements I want to achieve and gain.
But now, I don’t know where all of those dreams and goals had gone to. All of them suddenly vanished in one click.
My undetermined self soon started giving up. I suddenly felt so alone despite of the fact that I have many friends who are always there for me. And yet, I still feel that they would not understand how I feel. They might think that I am crazy or probably will tell me that I am just wasting my time for non sense things. That is the reason why I choose to just keep it to myself. Crying is all that I can do.
Then, different problems of life suddenly touched my life and my family. That is the time when I finally realized that I have to bring my feet back on the ground. I try to be strong and enjoy me life. I knew right then that my parents needed me. I need to serve as their inspirations and not to be one of the problems that they have to deal with.
So even though I have a broken dream and a broken heart, I try my best to get by.
The time came when the opportunity knows to my door unexpectedly. All of a sudden, I realize that I am finally entering the world of work.
It somehow manages to make think that I can be the person that I always want to be. That I can make my dreams come true.
I know that this blessing that I received is only temporary and that there is no assurance in my status yet. But these past few days, I am happy to say that my dreams, my plans and goal are coming back again. I still don’t know what I want but I will make it sure that whatever it is, I will not stop until I get what I want.
I will never give up and I won’t let anybody steal my dreams.
I’m not saying this because I have to; I am saying this because I know I can. I can make all my dreams come true…
I only have to BELIEVE…. J
